Hope and dissapointed

ya...
what i hope since last year!
had completely fade away...
fade towards nowhere!

hope!
is it really good for us!
what us had hope for,
wont be coming true in the end!
may be i should say some of them did come true!
but,
most of them just an empty hope!
EMPTY one... hope for nothing at last!

what is hope in this world?
many people say hope is the best cure for us when we encounter witha problem that have no solutions!
but why?
why is me?
why my hope will be the one that is EMPTY?
is my hope too high?
or is my hope is meaningless than they took away my hope!

it is not the first time i lost my hope!
i lost my hope one by one!
but i did not give up!
i still keep on hoping!
hoping everything will at least a bit happen in the way i hope for...

why?
now my head just so many why?
even i write any more about WHY!!!
it still cant help!
am i sick?
am i nerd?
am i crazy?
am i a weaker?
am i think too much?

may be i really think too much!
i did not ever had a chance to sit down and think slowly!

do i need a moment to do it?
may be a few minute?
do i need it?
do i?

at this moment!
my heart is really pain u know!
the word u say just now really did hurt me!
not little...
but a lot!
u killing my hope...
a hope that last for almost a year!
a hope that i would sometime think about it!!!

although i know that it is your style!
your style of talking!
but...
please!
at least give a moment to me... just only for me!
care me a while!
really understand what i want!
really try to know that actually i will be extra sad if u really said tat to me!

i everytime will think of your feeling first!
you indirectly become my priority in my life!
but i really did not think of you wil treat me like this!
i think you really did not ever try to understand me!
although i am just your friend!
may be i should say is best friend!
u should try to know me well...

only a sentence!
a SENTENCE only...
my hope is gonna fly away!

if it is really fly then it would be better!
but now i think it is vanish...
vanishing...
dissapearing...
in my life...




hurting~

why my feeling still so bad even i try to express it all out here!
have i change?
too much questions in my head!
may be i should dont think too much~
relax man~ u can do it!

you are better than anyone else!
you are not a weaker that will being defeat by just a sentence!
cheer up man!!! cheer up!!!